The End of Line

A state of thoughtfulness, indulging parity between peers, a constant regression that led me to where sense loses you. Arguing to stay intact, to overcome the diaspora of oneself, makes it all a gloom filled and saturated mask of life, the mask that will never have what’s needed to overcome the constant feeling of despondency. I walk feeling righteous, yet narcissism flowing through my veins. Yes, I feel narcissistic, why? When you catechize your own self, you get to realize your reality that sometimes might not often be visible.

Thousand moments of happiness and a few of despair, thousand things to love and a few not to care. A rigorous and constant abrasion of life, grinding my thoughts and again making me stand where I never wished I be, I am.

The heaviness of the mistakes, the regret of uncompliant moments, unbecoming of my own self, bewitching once, ugly now, me and my reality both lay on the ground, to be judged and to be ripped apart and thrown away. From a cherished one to an abomination, I became a devil in disguise. A wolf in sheep’s clothing, a sanction from hell, I burn where none would heal, I churn where none would yield.

I walk to justify the unforgiving, I walk towards the summation of my life. Cannot find the start of the line, yet cannot contemplate the end, I walk. I walk to let go of everything and to stop any more of the starts. I walk towards the stop that’s full and leads nowhere.

Manifest of Life

There is no lower or upper limit to what a person might find happiness in. It could be a very small thing, or a big bond of happy. Life consists of many turn events, all these turn events are motivated by the core human values & feelings i.e Empathy, love, sadness, happiness & hatred.

From day one all good people in your life teach you to be happy, cheerful, to think positive & be social. Parents want you to be happy & successful and to lead a good life. Teachers teach you all that you know, oh at least some do.  While, everybody tells you to live life as you want to, though it doesn’t really work that way. As you start to live it your own way, things start to go south & then the need to change your ways of life arises . Slowly & without a hint either you turn into a self righteous person or you just start to go with the flow, being nice & doing what others want you to do.

Though there is nothing wrong in doing a bit of what others want, it’s a good thing indeed to think about how your actions might affect others and to make sure that the ones you love or care about are happy in every way possible & to work in everyway that you can help to make it fruitful for them, even if that includes a little bit of self-sacrifice.

Being supportive in everyway possible is a very good deed to do. But, in the process of being supportive & making sure of the comfort of others, just make sure that you know the limit of how much you can actually do without loosing yourself. If you think that it’s not going to happen, think again. We Humans have a tendency of being nice to the ones that are nice to us. If you think, your relation, be it any relation is very nice & blooming with happiness, try mixing some sour moments therein & see the results. It’s always the bad time that shows the true faces of every & all relations you got.

All the rules & guidelines that our lives are tied to in todays world are only made by us & there is nothing wrong in questioning them or even breaking some of them, if necessary. I don’t intend to tell you to revolt, but using an open mind & living the way you want to is not wrong until it adversely affects people close to you.

Expression of what you feel is equally important, keep it within you for very long & it starts to sting & smell. Don’t run over the thoughts that your mind gives out & on the feelings that your heart has. You are also important & you also deserve to be happy.