I, What I am!
I started off as a good human being, I suppose. The common saying suggests that there is never only black & white, but that line of grey the world works on. As a naïve being, I used to think, no, I will not take the path of grey in life. Came to me the gift of logic, logic for coding, and life took me up to a level where one & zero (1,0) took up the entirety of my time.
The code doesn’t lie, it doesn’t cheat, it doesn’t manipulate. Revisiting the last statement, the code doesn’t do all those things to its coder. Though the code can do all those things for its coder, and that’s the definition of truth.
I started off as a “normal” human being, I suppose. Climbing up the ladder & checking multiple checkboxes at ones, I reached a place where only return() seemed like a sane option. I returned.
Being vested in something to an extent that you deprive yourself of the worldly charms, to just live your life, without collecting memorabilia might one day disprove your entire life & discredit your story.
Not following the herd, makes me not-normal, as iterated and suggested by the herd. “Common” human psyche suggests that everyone wants better in life, everyone wants to feel special & to get out of this common herd. The same people who vindicate me for being “not normal”, want to be not normal and stand out of the herd. A platitude, a cliché or what else might I call it.
The day has come when the value of one’s word solely depends on the things they have from the time in question. We, the people have started an era where there is no value at all for a bond between two people. All that matters is what can you prove. Crediting & discrediting comes based on the corroboration of your story.
Chaos. Life, Success…
I have always subjugated a theory. I shall call it the “theory of Chaos” (Not the CHAOS theory). I stand at a viewpoint, a moral high ground so that I can assert right from wrong. All my loved ones, should feel loved & ‘cared’ for, doesn’t give me a GOD complex, but provides me with the ultimate satisfaction of being able to give & take some happiness in the misery of day to day life.
Dictating wishes, while cosying up on your bed is way too easy, then going out in the world & making them come true.
Here, chaos occurs, when you get things done by just opening your mouth, the person who does all the work, will one day get slow at completing these tasks. Overlapping desires & time crunch will lead to this chaos, why? Out of 100 said things, if only one (1) doesn’t get fulfilled, you will, in turn, be labelled as a bad human being! Desires take that huge a role, that you get lost in this chaos.
A just cause for someone, a knife walk for me.
It gets worse. When you start to think, “I am needed”, life slaps you in the face and says “No, you are not”, why? Because people are replaced with more people & tasks are delegated. It doesn’t matter or makes a difference, who does it.
Success, a word for some, a day to day milestone for others. I have answered this one before. What is ‘success’? For some, it is that ultimate milestone that makes the world go shiny. The place where life takes the perfect shape they wanted.
But, isn’t success meant to be directly proportional to happiness? Not necessarily! In today’s world. If you are able to make each day that goes by, worth living, if you had a smile on your face or you were made to feel special, it’s ‘success’. At least I believe so!
When you waste or rather screw each day over and over and over for an infinite period of time, you don’t know the meaning of success. When you delay, or start to schedule happiness based on factors and time that is yet to come, you are delaying your success. Happiness can never be scheduled. It can be felt, “NOW”!
The day you start to feel small, smaller than the world around you, it’s time to stop and rethink your life choices. Having a fair idea of your place in the world, rather achieving that state of self-actualization is a necessity for a happy today and a bright tomorrow. Something to Ponder on…